| Summer is coming. |
[Monday
March 23rd, 2009 at 2:27pm] |
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mates of state |
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Why are you making it harder?
Why are you driving it home?
I am not the broken-hearted
I am just a load of bad things
You can pretend you weren't let down
We all know the soft song tonight
You can pretend you weren't let down
We all know the soft song tonight
I am not the broken-hearted
I am just a load of bad things
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| If you'd be my dream, I could have you every night. |
[Tuesday
March 11th, 2008 at 10:21pm] |
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bright eyes-you will.you? will. you? will. you? will. |
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my friend is in rivercrest now.
its just one thing after another.
but you know,
i'm learning how to cope.
i'm proud of myself.
dunno if i should be
but i am
my moms letting me repierce my lip
for my bday
=]
can hardly wait.
san antonio this weekend
which means
HOLLISTER!!!
woo.
ha
sorry, i love that store.
been stayin up til 3 every night.
weird.
i'm so crazy ha.
i just want to get on a bus and GO.
go where?
i don't know.
everywhere
nowhere
somewhere
anywhere.
just, go.
i'm ready for a new adventure
:]
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| The harder I try to resist you, the weaker I seem to be. |
[Friday
February 8th, 2008 at 12:38am] |
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gary allen-"loving you against my will" |
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so it's 12:40 am.
why am i awake?
why not?
i'm supposed to be revising my essay.
all i need is works cited and a few direct quotes.
why is school so hard??!?!!?
im going to apply for ASU classes next year
but ill prob just end up doing AP
I'm kinda scared about the AP tests...
but i think they are hyped up some.
I got into regular Pre-Cal
So I guess I'll see how that goes.
Unfortunately idk who's going to be in my class.
Gosh I love Brad Paisley.
How cheesy is that?
It's Eloy's fault, everytime we hang out I start listenin to country again.
pft.
i think im going to go work out in a few hours.
if i get my essay doneee!!!
ps. The Color of Water is a really really good book!!!
=]
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| Then I could tell you, the truth like I used to. |
[Monday
February 4th, 2008 at 7:10pm] |
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backseat goodbye-"technicolor eyes" |
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life is great.
i got ungrounded yesterday =]
so i watched the superbowl with chuck & molly
and others.
ha
i went to lunch with rico today,
it's been weird now that i'm kinda startin to talk to all them again.
but i'm not going to try too hard.
because i love my friends this year. :D
i basically got hired at hot topic
bahaha
i wonder if i can wear hollister up in there??
i dunno but they're havin a little meeting type thing on wednesday
hopefully my haircut is done by then...
i hope i get one of the jobs i applied for.
i turned in like 8 diff applications, im bound to get one of them! haha
man i've been so mellow lately,
it's amazing
mostly due to the help of starbucks
and red bull
they keep me going!!
you'd think that would make me hyper,
but mostly it just keeps me awake.
i get about 18 hours of sleep a week.
yay?
well
me and gabriel went out for like a week.
relationships are so so stupid.
i felt so trapped.
as i always do.
my life is changing once again.
and i like where it's going.
ive been going to the gym constantly,
cuttin out red meat and junk food.
soda. (goodbye dr pepper =[ )
OMG
spring break
equals
SXSW!!!
im so excited
i actually get to go this year.
i hope someone gets to come with me though.
but its whateveer.
mm cant wait for this summer.
im going to NEW YORK!!!!!
and probably baltimore to see sophie =]
im pretty pumped.
but, i have homework and chocolate covered strawberries calling my name.
au revoir!
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| I guess I can't really complain. |
[Saturday
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:48pm] |
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nickel creek-"anthony" |
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I made her smile, I made her cry
Cleared her head and made her wonder why
I helped her live, I made her want to die
But she can't complain, she can't complain
She tried to date a friend of mine
I was at his house when she came to say goobye
He stood her up and she took it as a sign
But I can't complain, I can't complain
We took off for the weekend, had quite a time
Shared everything we'd ever tried
I told her I could love her, told her I could lie
So she can't complain, she can't complain
She didn't care if she saw me in her life
I left it up for her to decide
She couldn't see the end, neither could I
So I can't complain, I guess I can't complain
She moved here, bought the first house she could find
I moved in, we locked ourselves inside
I guess we just kidnapped each other's minds
So we can't complain, we can't complain, mmm
I cheated on her with a friend of mine
There are no days when we don't fight
But remember, I warned her, and I'm a guy
So she can't complain, no she can't complain
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| According to Mr. Morris (aka the bush baby) |
[Thursday
January 31st, 2008 at 10:35pm] |
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smooth criminal |
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Morality is on the decline.
Exhibit A, please?
mm i don't work on superbowl
=]
it's 10:38
time to finish chemistry.
ughhhh
=[ save meee
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| muahahaha |
[Sunday
January 27th, 2008 at 6:49pm] |
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 bouncy |
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the shins |
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Plan C is working =]
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| You carry me, through the cross. |
[Saturday
January 26th, 2008 at 10:12am] |
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Gosh the past two weeks have been crazy.
and not in a good way at all.
i feel horrible about everything i do
but at the same time
i honestly don't care
why should i have to spend my entire life just doing what people expect, or what makes them happy
i need to make me happy.
i need to make my own mistakes
deal with my own problems
i feel like i'm starting a new chapter
i like it
but at times i am so depressed
at church i just lost it
i felt lower than low.
people don't get it.
it's like, they start an argument etc
then place the blame on me.
my mom
santi
teachers
it just never ends.
i can't deal with them anymore.
next year im doing a half day
gonna work the rest of the time
i don't have time worrying about keeping my friends
if you're going to be an asshole
then go for it
but i don't want to hear about it.
me and ******* are going out now
ugh i don't know what to think of that
he is so sweet
and everytime i see him im happy
but the course that im taking right now
leads away from him
i guess we'll see what happens.
i know i'm destroying myself.
but there's no turning back now.
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| Best friends |
[Sunday
January 20th, 2008 at 10:04pm] |
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should not have boyfriends
i've lost like all of them
no joke.
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| Building 429 is amazing. |
[Sunday
January 13th, 2008 at 8:23pm] |
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Walk blindly to the light and reach out for His hand
Don’t ask any questions and don’t try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
You will see that you and me and very far apart
‘Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe love will find a way
Violence has spread worldwide and there’s families on the streets
We sell drugs to children now, well why can’t we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it ok
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| ATTACK OF THE LEEKS! |
[Monday
January 7th, 2008 at 8:00pm] |
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switchfoot |
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So I just started my 21 days of fasting for church.
Eek its gonna be hard.
But help me with my diettt
=]
me and jessi have run/walked/lunged? haha 3 miles in the past 2 days
and more to comeee
i love the feeling i get after working out.
its greatt
on a different note,
i miss my dad quite terribly.
bleh. san angelo.
yuckkk
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| 14 degrees |
[Tuesday
January 1st, 2008 at 1:55pm] |
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outside, and getting colder
jessi when you get home read my lj :]
i made a list for us this yearrrr
my resolutions are great.
if only i could go through with them!
i hope so.
no time to write til i get back to texas prob.
peace
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| M3RRY CHR1STM4S!!!! |
[Tuesday
December 25th, 2007 at 10:54am] |
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the devil wears prada-"texas is south" |
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so chrissy is in town, we're chilling tomorrow.
DUH?!
great christmas,
i love Jesus. :]
& for once the guy i like actually likes me!
but no names, cuz that will jinx me :D
you'll never know!
yesterday i worked from 8 in the morning til 7 at night.
and it was so much fun.
i loved it!!!
and i got a present from my bosses' lol
me & holly were so freakin hyper by the last hour of our shiftt
but oh wellz.
hope everybody has a great christmas,
and remember its not about you,
its all about Jesus!! <3
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| hahahah |
[Sunday
December 23rd, 2007 at 6:41pm] |
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alicia keys- no one |
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longgg day at work today apparantly randy threw a little bitch fit cuz me and levi went to the mall together. since you know, levi doesn't have a girlfriend or anything. jeez !
haha oh well, some people just don't grow up!
hmm tmw should be a long day too, nother 9 hour shift.
oh well ill be bankinnn $$$
:]
my mom is totally over the tattoo thing, yay!
haha apparently my grampa got one when HE was 16, so my mom basically got pwnt.
last night i chilled with mitch && rico, it was mellow and fun!
we played uno lol!!!!
well..............merry christmasss, and 5 days til omaha!! :D
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| this is why we're hot; |
[Saturday
December 22nd, 2007 at 10:30am] |
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nickel creek-"sabra girl" |
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last day of school = funnnnnnnnn
our english exam was like 20 minutes
so we got out of school at 10:30
me and jessi ate at my mommas work
then back to school.
then i dropped of anthony and manuel @ some place...
and off to the mall to hang out with gabriel!
i saw like 4930583094063 ppl there.
we got bored though
so went to weenie world
then some random playground
with killer children!!!
it was scary...
i had to help some little girl down off the giant caterpillar.
last nightttt...
went to the movies.
me and jessi bought embarrassing magazines at walgreens
went to walmart and FILLED a cart with pineapples, baby clothes, dog food, AND we saw two other sets of twins.
PLUS a prostitute.
then stupid work called me
cuz lisa didnt show up
so i went in to work
and blah!!
but today..........
another hangout sesh with gabriel.
santi is still gonna owe me 10 bucks, regardless.
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| make your harajuku doll! |
[Sunday
December 16th, 2007 at 5:35pm] |
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bright eyes-"lets not shit ourselves" |
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my momma found out about my tattoo.
not good!
she was really mad
but we hung out today
i think its all good.
i left my boss a note askin for more hours
i need to just work
like forever
i dont even want to hang out with people
haha
although the past two weeks have been really fun.
eek
finals this week
i should be studying.
keyword: SHOULD
yay omaha in 12 days
yall are going to miss me.
!!! LEVI'S BACK IN TOWN !!!
yay haha
i miss that kiddo.
we're going to hang out on thursday
woot woot
ps it's COLD outside
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| So why am I awake at 12:41 am?! |
[Friday
December 14th, 2007 at 12:41am] |
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emeryy delux edition |
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cuz i can't sleep that's why.
ewh i made another myspace.
http://www.myspace.com/fiz_lfpc
add me if you must. X[
so i really like emery.
they're pretty much one of my all time favorite bands.
got my work sched today.
i work 18 hours this week :D
finally i get some hours.
today i work 4-10
tomorrow 3-7
sunday 3-7
go see me?
so elaine hired some MORE people
cuz this girl in the deli is going back to iraq.
guess who she hired??
VICTOR'S BROTHER!
crazy right.
and some kinda cute guy haha for a bagger.
he's a sophomore but really nice.
so my flyer was pretty badass except my printer ink ran out.
so its all orange.
i guess it fits, since i did "agent orange".
ugh do NOT image search agent orange.
its so gross/ sad
it doesn't even seem real.
blech.
idk.
how can people be so cold?
speaking of that, everybody thinks im stupid or whatever,
but i actually have GOALS
other than doing what my parents do.
or whatever.
or getting in the best fxckin college available.
i actually want to help other people, not myself.
if that's stupid, then oh well.
i guess caring is stupid.
we are all linked together.
so get over your differences.
if i've learned anything this year,
it's how to let go of grudges.
and it has NOT been easy.
but definitely worth it.
well i'm gonna get a drink,
fall asleep to emery.
:]
even though my life is stormy right now,
i feel happy inside.
and that's something i haven't truly felt in a long time.
i just wish the outside could match.
funny, you'd think it would be the other way around.
but things used to get me so so down.
and they still do, at times.
every day is a struggle for me.
but i'm more at ease, i'm more in love with life and God,
and although it may not seem like it, I'm changing for the better.
i've been having a few relapses lately, but it will pass.
i have good friends and good faith.
and i have compassion in my heart.
if you don't like it,
tell me.
so i can pray for you.
xx goodnight.
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| heheh ;D |
[Thursday
December 13th, 2007 at 4:11pm] |
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 freakin amazing |
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wheezy baby |
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today was amazing.
yesterday was amazing.
tomorrow will be amazing.
mhm.
time to do my chemistry project ;D
<<my back hurts>>
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| Blegh. |
[Monday
December 10th, 2007 at 5:56pm] |
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sufjan stevens-to be alone with you |
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Blegh is my new word.
It about sums up, well, everything lately
i had the worst week last week.
GREAT weekend wif my twin and all.
;D
andd today, i just crashed.
it's hard keeping everything inside.
i mean, HARD.
Like, i've been bombarded with emotions of all different shapes and sizes
and i just can't fight them off anymore.
on my way home i stopped my car in the middle of the road.
and just waited.
I don't want to die.
it's just
i kinda wanted to disappear
you know?
the mist was inviting.
i came home and turned on all the christmas lights.
tried to go to sleep.
couldn't...my mom came home and i got mad
for no reason.
then i felt really bad and started crying.
she came in my room and sat with me with the light off and i just cried.
if people had any idea of what me and my family goes through...
not to say no one else has problems.
i just wish i could help everyone
but i can't even help myself.
i feel like i'm completely and utterly alone.
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| killer drag queens on dope wha?!! |
[Sunday
December 2nd, 2007 at 10:27am] |
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great!!!! |
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hehe so the weekly movie night marathon has begun.
:]
first movie: platoon.
me and jessi own.
we drank WAY too many shots last night.
haha DOUBLE SHOTS sillies!
gonna go buy me some more.
life is good.
abilene was fun.
time for work!
:D
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